About

From a post on 10.27.11:

Lately, as I've discovered new writers and tried to figure out their Story, I've been wondering how to describe who I am to all of you.  Lots of things have made me who I am, but it's kind of like this giant mish-mash pot of stuff and feelings and experiences; lots of good and lots of bad.

I am someone who lost her mother to cancer when I was just eight years old, but I am also someone who gained a second mother a few years later.  I am someone who has made some truly awful life decisions; ones that make my mind's eye cringe and hope my children never repeat.  I have always bitten my fingernails and I hate it.  I am someone who loves small cars and matching underwear.  I am someone who is awfully sarcastic and inappropriate but will cry for and with a friend at the drop of a hat.  I wish I was more patient with my husband.  I am someone who had a dreamy, problem-free first pregnancy but who then had a most horrific second pregnancy with some issues I have only shared with a few. 

I am someone who doesn't have a favorite color.  I have two cowlicks which prevent me from having the side-swept bangs of my dreams.  I am someone who sometimes wishes I was thinner but am too lazy to do much of anything about it.  I am smart in ways that don't really matter like US Weekly and doing well at Jeopardy rather than current world events and math.

I am someone who is able to read people's emotional cues and remember details extraordinarily well.  I am someone unable to leave a dirty kitchen before going to bed.  I am someone sometimes repulsed by the religious and political rantings of others but also thankful I live somewhere where you won't be stoned for voicing them.  I am someone who has oily skin and still breaks out and this gives me the absolute rage.

I am someone who cackles and gasps a lot, makes up words and wonders what is UP with those without a sense of humor.  I hate small talk and house parties.  I wish I was a better parent.  I am someone who has to mute the tv and cover my eyes when a preview for a scary movie comes on.  I am someone who gets really excited about making a new friend.

I am someone who is thankful for you all everyday.